Understanding the mirror effect....

It is said that what you give is what you get. Most of us believe in it ... i know i do. But when something goes really wrong... it makes me wonder what have i done to deserve this or why did he/she have to behave this way? i was nothin but good to him/her.

Used to discuss this with mum. She told me one thing if u have't done anything wrong ... nothing bad would happen to you. If its not my fault it should't bother me. But it is not easy.If someone is being unreasonably evil...let them be... they'll get it back. its the law... nature's law. So... I would just try to get over it by ignoring and moving on with life.

It took me a couple of months to truly understand what mum said cos i could see it... bright and clear... People who hurt me were friendless, totally betrayed..and the irony is they would come to me for support.I should be happy seeing them like this... should't i...? no i dont... probably that not there in by upbringing... but i dont feel sad for them either.

But why did i have to go thru all the bitterness? those days were horrible...

I thought a lot about it... the answer was very simple. If it werent for those horrible times i would't have valued my current friends. It was God's indication to stay away... or rather to protect me from more pain.

Right now i have a wonderful set of friends, friends who would do anythin to see if i am ok, who truely care for me...and friends for whom i would do anything.

Some incidents leave a very deep impact on us. It makes us see people in two distinct colours... one on ur side and one on the other. I was fortunate to have been thru one.

Their care and affection made me taste a different flavour to friendship. I was soo moved...

Could't thank god enough for blessing me with such amazing friends...

Why am i writing this? might come across as a show off... ''oh look... i have a wonderful set of friends... oh they are so lovely...blah''.... I always believed that if you have something nice.. it shows .. u need not make any efforts. BUT of late i realised that all i am doin is 'whining' abt how bad pple around me are ... is leaving a very very wrong impression on some people that i am friendless.

If i have gr8 people around me... I might as well show off...

One fine day i realised...

Here are some things i realised one fine day...
One fine day i realised that person was't worth it...
One fine day i realised someone really cared for me...someone i never expected!
One fine day i realised i was in love(/had a crush.. watever!)
One fine day i realised i was nothin but a joke for them..
One fine day i realised i had the credibility...
One fine day i realised i was worth much more...
One fine day i realised i deserved it..
One fine day i realised i could make someone's day...
One fine day i realised i was a good student...
One fine day i realised i was smarter and better than 'them'
One fine day i realised life is beautiful..
One fine day i realised i can make someone laugh..
One fine day i realised i can hurt someone..
One fine day i realised i have the right to have my say...

Till a few days back i had some additions...
One fine day i realised maybe i should think about it..
One fine day i realised maybe i am being too judgemental..
One fine day i realised maybe you are the only one who understands me..
One fine day i realised maybe you are the only one for me...

Today i had some more additions to this list thanks to you...
One fine day i realised you dont know me at all...
One fine day i realised i was just a parasite for you..
One fine day i realised i was nothing more than the subject for ur blogs...
One fine day i realised you never respected me...
One fine day i realised our friendship that i valued the most was a lie...
One fine day i realised it was all fake as you confessed before...
One fine day i realised (yes) u are a mutant... with a superpower... keep guessing wat!

Today i thank you for bursting the bubble... and rewriting the reality for me... thanks...

grapes are sooo sour....i guess... ya... it must be...

Note to all guys:
Gifts are not the tools to get in her pants. She is probably accepting them as a good gesture... but i kno pple who have thrown it back at the guys face ...if she has't ,thank your stars for that.
Please pick up the cues that say NO.... if u dont know it...LEARN it... MASTER it.... instead of walking around her like a loser. For all u kno she is just tolerating you.
Money is important...yes, it is true BUT not the only thing important so dont use it as a weapon either ....you might end up attracting the wrong type. Women(genuine ones) look at money only as a security.
If u feel u r not worth her... maybe u r not... accept it... get over it... instead of tryin to get back at her using silly things. Understand.... at the end of the day.. u r just being low... and u kno it.
If u ignore the above, u'll only end up sayin 'oh she is not worth it...', 'she is SELFISH', 'She is greedy... a human leech', 'she is probably using guys for her ADVANTAGE'....

Stop sulking loser... u deserve it!

Loser

Yes.. I do think u have an ‘attitude’… an attitude of a loser.
I having been taking it for too long thinking some action of mine has hurt you. Have tried confronting but got the same diplomatic answer of yours , ’no dear… of course not!’.

So u find me programmed, artificial… whatever…. how does that matter to you.. how does that even remotely affect you to treat me or any1 the way you do. Don’t try to rationalize your behaviour saying ‘oh ! its just temporary…(or) or I am this way to survive in this place’…BULLSHIT! And you have the audacity to call me fake?!@#$ . Either u are stupid or u think pple around u are. And don’t try to live in a fool’s paradise… this behaviour is a part of you and it is showing just fine.
You may think am too simple, stupid, too old fashioned or even downright dumb…. I DON’T CARE! Its better to be a blonde than a super bitch! Atleast I am being myself with everyone unlike you. I really wonder how you face yourself... is there even an ounce self respect left in u ???

You know what!… just go and stay in your stupid ‘losers club’… sort of suits you. No… I don’t hate you …. I just pity you.

Unnoticed....

Still figuring out where i went wrong...

I feel i lost every bit of confidence in me. All am doin since that moment is goin back in time and analysing myself. Rewind..... ok i was assigned these tasks.... did i do it?.... YES!

Then why did it go unnoticed?..... did they take it for granted... or did they assume it happened miraculously? i dont get it.....

I dont kno wat to think... how am i supposed to feel?

Random thoughts -1

Finally got time to meet a couple of my friends for lunch. Had a lot to catch up. The conversation went on and on and the flow of it sort of kept changing directions. It went from college to hair-do to changing lifestyles to behavioural changes in the society... the do and the donts.... etc

Had huge discussions on "Given a choice....where would u wanna settle...India or abroad?", "Marriage -the end or the beginning of life... is it even necessary?"," Are women in India given enough opportunity to grow ... most importantly do they even have any scope to grow? "

She said: "I dont wanna get married... i dont believe in marriage.I dont wanna have kids and have a routine life. I love my freedom. I wanna work, learn and earn as much as possible, be able to do watever i want to without being questioned....I wanna live my life fully. Thats why I wanna live in the US and not in India."

Thats when i thought cant she fulfill all this being in India? why not?

Well, she can ...provided she is strong enough to defend her actions for she surely will be questioned for every move she makes and would be surely accused of being "too modern". We live in a society where everyone thinks its their birthright to peep into others lives, where 'mind your own business' is sill an alien concept, where the dos and donts gyaan comes from the neighbour's house (can be replaced by any of the relatives, friend's parents... their neighbours...its India...its possible) .

I have been having evening lectures (MBA) and my parents had a difficult time explaining pple that there are colls open till late evening. B'cos of this some think am acting pricey, some think am avoiding them, some think i have an affair blah blah.

Initially it used to irritate me but lately have have been in the ''I Dont Care" situation. I do not take efforts to convince pple...why cos am tired and I dont feel it is necessary to go abt shouting on the rooftops.

And as sum1 rightly said:

"Dont explain urself to anyone-

If they like you...they dont need it

If they dont...they wont believe it"

Bottom line:It would be anybody's dream to live life fully, do anything they want without being judged. Atleast i know its mine.

Rains... splashing its way to glory!

There is something abt this season thatz just irresistable. It suddenly changes the mood.... there is sumthin in the wind, in the tiny droplets of water sprinkling around and relieving the burning surface of the earth from the scorching heat of May. The breeze brings a sense of freshness around and envelopes the place with something very enchanting....

Everything luks so... gloomy yet new ...refreshing!

I have always loved this season...

Its brings its own flavour our lives....

We tend to enjoy it in our own way...

Kids...splashing in the rain water... bring out their paper boats...

Teens enjoy the walk in the rain... near the sea face

Adults... enjoy their piping hot tea with pakoras on the side

I like to sit by the window side or in the balcony with a nice romantic novel in my hand or listening to the music or just chatting with mom or any body for that matter....

Am loving it.... every bit of it!

Gal next door

You a cute simple gal…..
You are the gal next door type
Tereko toh koi bhi ladka mil jayega…(oh really???...so what happened? He lost his way or sumthing?)
Tu who chalu type ki ladki nahi hai, tu bahut seedi hai..(….maybe that’s why I feel like a blonde most of the time.)

During my comic reading days I used to love Archies. I used to associate myself with Betty a lot. Those were the times when I used to feel that no matter what... ‘good gal’s get to win at the end. (Well, I grew up with that belief.). It was only later that I realized probably I was wrong. Guyz usually tend to choose the beautiful (even though spoilt like veronica) over the ‘girl next door’…just like how Archie chose Ronnie over Betty, Abhishek B chose the gorgeous Aish over plane jane- Rani or Dipanita for that matter.

Probably that how it is…..maybe ‘gal next door’ …remains next door!

Finance-o-phobia

11 exams back to back is costing me my sanity!

People have different phobias....such as fear of dogs, heights, spiders and so forth.....i have one too....a very interesting one Accounts-o-phobia aka Finance-o-phobia!
No matter how well prepared I am for it, i find a whole new way to screw it up...every time!

Sometimes I wonder what made me take up commerce as my stream in the first place.... I should have been in Arts or science or anything except this! I remember crying after every accounts paper right since 11th grade. A wave of relief swept over me with the completion of my bachelors.... "chalo accounts ke saath divorce ho gaya"

But that happiness was short lived.It raised its ugly face in MMS.... but am glad i don't have to face it in the second year. Every accounts/finance paper is like a war for me.....fierce, disappointing, painful....
My dream is to win once...... just once..... and get over with it.

some dialogues burried in the brain....

Parallel dialogues that ring in our minds

(the dialogues u r about to read below r a censored version of what i have collected till now.... )

[Source:cencored]

Many times all we want to say is(or rather we wish we could say)-

"I used to care a lot..... now i dont.... why? cos u dont want me to...simple!"

"How rude!"

"Oh my god !... u r such a jerk!"(happens many a times)

"Go drown urself in the gutter... u swine!"

"Oh.... jussstttt.....jusssttt...SHUT UP!"

"Oh god! not u again!"

And some silent thoughts that cross our minds that never makes its way to our lips...
"I know u r lyin"

"u wanna know the truth,read my eyes....u'll know"

"dont u get it?...moron!!"

"i know wats goin on so....just stop foolin...URSELF!"

"U hurt me"

"Am sorry"

"i miss u........ a lot"

"I wish u liked me the way i like u"

"Oh ..pls...pls tell me u love me...."

"I hope its him/her....oh crap! its him/her.... did he/she hear me"
"oh pls dont luk at me that way...... its not gonna work!"
"I always wanted to tell u.... but should I?"

and some indifferent thoughts...

"hmm.... so what?"

"Big deal!"

"u r not that important.... chill...."

"guess what?guess what? guess what?...... i dont care!"

last but not the least...
u meet a friend u r really mad at .... u say "get lost!"... when u want to say "hi!... where were u... i missed u soooooooooo much!"

BUT u meet a 'so called friend' u r mad at..... u say,"Hey ...where have u been?"... when all u want to say is "GET LOST!"

Irony...isnt it?

Tired of running....

Sometimes we want something or someone so much that we dont mind running after it/them till eternity or till we get hold of them/it (whichever comes first).
As human beings we have several wants...we all know that but apart from that we also have several expectations from life or people for that matter.We all tend to design our lives to go in a particular way simply because we think it is the best...planning. But as they say life is unceratin... things do not always go as we plan it to be. Now this is when it becomes painful.
"Change".... can we deal with it? is it that difficult? Of course it is ... why?? because we dont know where it will lead us....its uncertainty freaks us out.

Similarly when someone close to us be it our family or friend or colleague ...starts behaving differently , we cannot take it... we try to run behind relationships because we think we cannot survive without it.We expect a certain person to behave or react in a particular way...and when he does not it freaks us out!
Now this was about realtionships,...same is the case with careers or ur day to day events in life.

So what is the solution to it?
probably to accept the change and to let go..... maynot be easy but will save you from pain.
We need to accept the fact that we cannot control people's will no matter how much me try.Similarly we cannot turn certain natural events/phenomena.Somethings are just not meant to be.Its probably for the best!We should stop running behind things that are not possible ....sometimes the best solution is to let go.
But that does not stop us from hoping.If something is really meant to be it will happen... no matter what.

Hope and Faith are 2 things that keep us from breaking down!

A subtle difference....on its way to be significant!

It is when you know things are not right and you have the potential to make it right.... if not great...... at least better...... still you wait for someone to set things right just because you think they(someone else) can do it better. well the answer is -doesnt always happen that way.
Sometimes in life you need to stand up for what is right and try to make a difference withen your capacity... to hell with what others think...

There will always be a set of people(jerks) who'll think you are wrong.They will try their level best to stop you from doin things that'll make a difference in the world around you but the trick is to listen to your gut feeling and move on.

It feels great to know that you are making a difference in someone's life.... My advice to all of you reading this ... try it... take an initiative to do something selflessly...it feels gr8!

Presentations, Tests ...etc

Past 2 weeks have been too much for me.... loaded with tests and presentations. Hardly have sleep of 4-5 hrs...takin a toll on my health...
Earlier ,stayin awake till 2am-3am used to be a big deal for me... well...not anymore,,....;)
On the contrary I have started likin stay up late... its too silent and peaceful.Seems like i have all the time in the world just for me...

More 3 presenations to go in this month and one in the next month thus officially concluding my second semister(lecture part...).Have my end semister exams next month....12 subjects less than 30 days...scary yaar... gotta start studyin.

Well ....cant figure out how time flies....admission to MBA seems like yest. In a couple of months we are goin to have a fresh batch comin in...WOW!...we r goin to be seniors...hmm... would be interestin.

Happy HOLIday!

Its 12.40 am and I have a series of tests and presentations comin up...

Dont feel like studyin either....

Have a holiday after a very long time...... for id and holi!

Wishing U n ur family a very Happy Holi!!

Anyways today was fun. Got an opportunity to go out with family for dinner after a long time. Had a gr8 time. .... along with gr8 conversations right from art, drama etc... to what I should or can do after my mba.

I found the right time to put forth my desire to get into fashion designing. The conversation went sumthin like this...

DAD: you kno wat... u should finish ur M.Com after u finish ur MBA.... its just one yr left.

ME:ya... i will....

DAD:also... u should continue ur violin durin weekends or so... its good to learn instruments.

(fyi have learnt violin for 4 yrs...when?....long long ago...lol)
ME:ya.. dad... but u kno i want learn canvas painting from a good professional.

DAD:but u have given ur drawing exams...that.. elementry and intermediate exams?
ME:ya... but this is different...u c!

btw... dad... i want to join fashion designing school after mba.... remember that coll we went to when i was in fybcom?

DAD:wat r u talkin abt?(after a short flashback session)ah....ok.....what is the duration of the course?
ME:3 yrs(in a low tone)

DAD:r u sure?...(sounded more like u might wanna rethink)
ME:ya dad....+ve

Was successful in shockin dad today... but he is a person who respects knowledge. Am sure he will never say no for anything as far as learning is concerned. He trusts my decisions.

Its 12.50am now...... its raining outside...... wow! how can a person study in an environment like this ?

anyways... gtg.. I really need to pass in these tests...good nite!

Mama knows the best!

Well... you can fool ur friends,
you can fool ur enemies,
you can fool ur teachers,
you can fool the world,
you can fool urself,
you can fool GOD.....
....but u cant fool MOM...... they r gifted with sum inbuilt invisible lie detectors!

"is sumthin bothering you .....i kno sumthinz bothin u... tell me"
"nuh thin ma...... just nothin"
"u need to open up"
"what makes u think sumthin is botherin me?"
"u smile less these days, u dont eat well, u talk less, u dont seem to find things inspite of it being in front of u, ur room has becum a mess, ur stress is comin on ur face in the form of zits and..."
"ok...ok.... u can stop...."

see what i mean.... its like they can see thru u....thru ur eyes.... thru ur 'fake smile'.... they r awesum! ... scary yet awesum!

No matter how old u grow u'll always be their 'babies'..... they would fight the world for u, they mean the best for u...maybe thats why they say mama knos the best.(...errr...eerrr... most of the time)

Luv u mom... u rock!

Mr.Perfect exists??

'He would be perfect for u'
'Really??'
'well...ya....he is well educated, tall-dark-handsome , gr8 family, well to do......(etc etc)'

Never had this talk with anyone before.... k... at least not with mum.Felt sort of weird. Marriage me??....aint i too young for that? as i look around... I realise probably not that young. But i need time... 2-3 yrs maybe. I want to enjoy life before I take up this responsibility.

Parents will be parents, they want the best for us. Since I havent found any1 for myself ...didnt see any harm in giving it a thought.
But there is still a long way to go...

Lets wait and see what happens.

Run coward run

I have seen people running from situations as they fail to gather courage to face them, but you know what.... you beat them all...why?? because you dont have the balls to face yourself. Run(/hybernate)... thats all you do or rather thats all you have been doin throughout your life. Thats the reason why you dont deserve sympathy. One can sympathise with a person who has had the courage to face the situation and sort it out(....or at least attempted) but failed. I really wished you were one of them.
Dont think that people around you are stupid.... at least not the people who are close to you, who know you. But using silence,playin the blame game, rationalizing your actions(which you are gr8 at) or your usual 'disappearing act' just shows how much irresponsible and incapable you are of handling situations of your life/decisions.
Remember you cant get away like this every time .... its goin to be painful for you and others.
'running from a problem is not the solution to it'

Hope you get the point.
PS: I miss you

Best friends ......in installments!!!

God has been very kind to me when it comes to friends. Since childhood I have never fallen short of friends.... and I have found a good variety of them, possessing different combinations....right from caring, possessive, nerd, weird, sweet, dumb, intelligent, indifferent, snob, psycho, smart....super smart, and some plain selfish. Got to learn a lot from them.
But when it came to best friends....I think God was pretty confused himself. He chose to give me some variety....also not to forget in installments. For every 2-3 yrs I would have friends with whom I could connect, share the deepest secrets , our typical joys n sorrows, crushes, gal talk but then eventually for some strange reason we would part...and lose touch over a period. All that remains is the tag 'best friend'.
No onez to blame in this situation as its no onez fault. As they say its very easy to build relationships... the difficult part is to maintain it. I feel somewhere in life priorities change... (I mean every one of us here)...consequently so do people. Why? How? Well there are many factors....careers, boyfriend/girlfriend, work etc etc.... and some times misunderstandings (worst).
Right now in this stage I do have 'close friends' who like me for who I am(as I am), care for me, have been there for me when I needed them(and vice versa …of course)....and I hope we remain close friends forever.

soo not in love...

Am soo not in love.
If i were (in love) i would have.... thought abt him all the time.....Missed him when he was not around......Searched for him in the crowd and looked away when found....or Think abt him at night wishing for the comfort of his arms.
I dont think abt him that way..... of course am not in love.



I dont blush when our eyes meet nor do I listen to his fav songs...(everyday) ....nor do i wish to meet 'accidentally' sumwhere....
of course am not in love....
You dont believe me .....huh?
I dont miss him when i read romantic novels...not even when i gaze at the clear night sky lit with a zillion stars....
I dont wish for his happiness everynight nor do I wish that we never met in the first place so that i would't have to lie to everyone including myself that i am sooo not in love....

lucky me....

I must have done something really good in my past life to deserve such amazing people around me , first would be my family (of course yaar....) and second are my close friends/my buddies/my jaanuuuuuuzzzzzz...lolzzz !
They have been my constant support , my lifeline.......
I dont wanna lose them ever.......!
If you guyz are reading this.......i just want you to know.....i love you too much! u rock!muaaahhhh!

MBA...not just a masters course for me!

Am soo used to being organised though my family will never agree with me ..am sure... they think i am a complete mess!! I have always been the 'good girl' type ...u kno! going to college on time ,coming back home soon after lectures. I used to like being back home early, for me being at home is relaxing.Staying in college after lecs used to be a waste of time for me.
But MBA has been a different experience for me. It has taught me to stay away from home.I can confidently say my coll is my second home.My parents have started considering me as their payin guests(only difference being... i dont pay!) as i come home only to sleep. There are times when i dont get to see my father for days ....as... i enter the house when he goes to sleep and i wake up in the morning after he leaves for work. Its cool to use the phrase.."hey dad! long time no c!"
I have learnt a lot after joining this college and by sayin this i mean apart form the normal book stuff.There were soo many things that i used to believe ....especially about relationships, gestures, values...or just living life .....it has all changed maybe not totally, i can say modified. I had only heard people sayin that 'things are not always as they look' or 'people can change almost overnight' .....never got the chance to experience it till recently.
I have learnt to keep my cool and take things with a pinch of salt.Most of all i have learnt to be independant. There is one thing that i truly believe and that is to be true to oneself . It really doesnt matter if people perceive you wrongly .... because at the end of day you have to face yourself in the mirror and i would like to see myself and not some stranger in the mirror.
And as far as friends misunderstanding you is concerned..... relax! if they are your true friends they will understand you one day, give them some time.

Looking forward to learn a lot more things....preferably not the hard way...;)

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

I have found best of friends in the weirdest of ways!And i am thankful to the almighty for that!
'oh! you r goin out?? ....with who? friends?'
'yup'
'Which friends?...school??'
'nope'
'Coll?'
'nope'
'MBA?'
'nope.....just friends....there is a world beyond school n coll...;)'
And i am very fortunate to have them.i know they will always be there for me(n vice versa ....of course!:) ).
I remember the time when we went out for a short trip for new years eve.We had an opportunity to get drunk.But the idea of getting drunk doesnt really facinate me unlike my friends;).But i decided to try vodka(no.... i didnt have neat!) with sprite.The guys in my group were quite worried though,as they were thought we might get drunk in just one shot n fall in the bushes.They were literally stalkin us throughout....but i thought it was very sweet of them.
As we were dancing thru the night,we were in high spirits[....me due to music and my dear friends, due to the spirit named 'vodka'] my friend suddenly stopped,turned to me and said 'you know what....i never thought i would get such a good friend like u', thats all she said and she continued dancing with her eyes half closed.I really didnt know how to react....but it left me feeling gr8!
That night i didnt need vodka to get a high.

Age factor!

She:"Hey....we cant tell him that!!! he is elder!!"
Me:"So??....That doesnt make him right.What he did was still wrong."
She:"I know dear, but he is too old to understand that.His generation has that mentality, we cant change that"
Me:"But someone needs to tell him he is wrong.He cant go about insulting pple like this....he has no right!"
She:"Hushhhh....You are being too loud.Anyways you cant change him,.....no one can,we tried...(me: but ... but.....)....Relax! go to your room."

' Respect',its meaning and the sole purpose has changed.Respect is something that comes from within for someone.It cannot be forced.Its true that we need to respect elders....but to what extent??Just b'cos we respect them,does it give them any right to dominate us.For that matter does it mean whatever they do is right??and we still have to nod with a smile and accept it with 'grace' to be titled as the ideal child/grandchild/student...etc.
Respect is not something that is to be demanded....it is to be earned!....just like trust!
If you demand respect....it actually means you dont deserve it!

I was goin through some old blogs of mine.Here is a post i came across which i had written after watching an amazing movie 'PS:I Love U' somewhere during christmas.Thought of sharing it...

'Never thought a movie would take me through so much of emotions .Itz so overwhelming to see or know how much a person can care about u or love you even after death….n see that u r ok.
There were many lines that hit me hard, made me think what others might go thru becos of the decisions u make. That brings me back to my original question…’is it that simple or just too complicated??’
“I am tired of being your shoulder”, “I want to be a part of u”,“I wish I was some1s jerry”,” I wish some1 could luv me sooo much that I would use her soo much that she would be ruined for any other man to use”…..
The feeling of being wanted keeps one breathing, the feeling of knowing that u make a difference in sum1z life is devine,sum1 is living for u,u r the reason for sum1z survival makes ur life meaningful …. Doesn’t it??
U reach a point in life where u realize,it really doesn’t matter how much marks u scored,who is ahead of who in life,ur career,job ….nothing….really nothing!when u see death nearin u, all u wish is to spend more time with pple u care abt and/or pple who care about u.u wish u could tell them how much u loved them,apologise for everything u said/did wrong ,…
Life is unpredictable! too short to hate sum1.reminds me of my professor who used to say”if u start hating every1 when will u find time to love them”, “be a child….don’t care who thinks what”,”Oh! U find it crazzy??....gr8!!!!.... do it!”.
Live life….its unpredictable.Tomorrow is a mystery, yesterday is a history…today is a gift …that’s why itz called a present.
Never miss an opprtunity to tell pple around u how much u love them,care about them.... enjoy every moment of ur life,dont waste time planning it...just live it!
i know its not that simple ...on the contrary its a luxury for most of us to do what we want to but instead of cribbing about it rather make the best of what we can,lets start from sumwhere.
so go plan ur vacation with ur loved ones.
Happy holidays!
P.S: I Love u'

10 things I hate about u

I just cant get over this piece of work!!
enjoy

"I hate the way you talk to me
and the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you drive my car
I hate it when you stare
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind
I hate you so much it makes me sick
it even makes me rhyme
I hate it
I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you're not around and the fact you didn't call,
but mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,
not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all."

.... dont u luv it too!

my first blog....yaaaayyyy

Here is my first blog...well not technically but on this site(my very own site!!) yes..its my first one.
I always wanted to write my personal diary to pour out my emotions,interal conflicts,frustration but was never successful.Anyways now i have found myself an e-diary where i can torture my readers my emo fundas...;)
So,al the best if you r reading my blogs!
wait for my next one....till then chao!