Finance-o-phobia

11 exams back to back is costing me my sanity!

People have different phobias....such as fear of dogs, heights, spiders and so forth.....i have one too....a very interesting one Accounts-o-phobia aka Finance-o-phobia!
No matter how well prepared I am for it, i find a whole new way to screw it up...every time!

Sometimes I wonder what made me take up commerce as my stream in the first place.... I should have been in Arts or science or anything except this! I remember crying after every accounts paper right since 11th grade. A wave of relief swept over me with the completion of my bachelors.... "chalo accounts ke saath divorce ho gaya"

But that happiness was short lived.It raised its ugly face in MMS.... but am glad i don't have to face it in the second year. Every accounts/finance paper is like a war for me.....fierce, disappointing, painful....
My dream is to win once...... just once..... and get over with it.

some dialogues burried in the brain....

Parallel dialogues that ring in our minds

(the dialogues u r about to read below r a censored version of what i have collected till now.... )

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Many times all we want to say is(or rather we wish we could say)-

"I used to care a lot..... now i dont.... why? cos u dont want me to...simple!"

"How rude!"

"Oh my god !... u r such a jerk!"(happens many a times)

"Go drown urself in the gutter... u swine!"

"Oh.... jussstttt.....jusssttt...SHUT UP!"

"Oh god! not u again!"

And some silent thoughts that cross our minds that never makes its way to our lips...
"I know u r lyin"

"u wanna know the truth,read my eyes....u'll know"

"dont u get it?...moron!!"

"i know wats goin on so....just stop foolin...URSELF!"

"U hurt me"

"Am sorry"

"i miss u........ a lot"

"I wish u liked me the way i like u"

"Oh ..pls...pls tell me u love me...."

"I hope its him/her....oh crap! its him/her.... did he/she hear me"
"oh pls dont luk at me that way...... its not gonna work!"
"I always wanted to tell u.... but should I?"

and some indifferent thoughts...

"hmm.... so what?"

"Big deal!"

"u r not that important.... chill...."

"guess what?guess what? guess what?...... i dont care!"

last but not the least...
u meet a friend u r really mad at .... u say "get lost!"... when u want to say "hi!... where were u... i missed u soooooooooo much!"

BUT u meet a 'so called friend' u r mad at..... u say,"Hey ...where have u been?"... when all u want to say is "GET LOST!"

Irony...isnt it?