Tired of running....

Sometimes we want something or someone so much that we dont mind running after it/them till eternity or till we get hold of them/it (whichever comes first).
As human beings we have several wants...we all know that but apart from that we also have several expectations from life or people for that matter.We all tend to design our lives to go in a particular way simply because we think it is the best...planning. But as they say life is unceratin... things do not always go as we plan it to be. Now this is when it becomes painful.
"Change".... can we deal with it? is it that difficult? Of course it is ... why?? because we dont know where it will lead us....its uncertainty freaks us out.

Similarly when someone close to us be it our family or friend or colleague ...starts behaving differently , we cannot take it... we try to run behind relationships because we think we cannot survive without it.We expect a certain person to behave or react in a particular way...and when he does not it freaks us out!
Now this was about realtionships,...same is the case with careers or ur day to day events in life.

So what is the solution to it?
probably to accept the change and to let go..... maynot be easy but will save you from pain.
We need to accept the fact that we cannot control people's will no matter how much me try.Similarly we cannot turn certain natural events/phenomena.Somethings are just not meant to be.Its probably for the best!We should stop running behind things that are not possible ....sometimes the best solution is to let go.
But that does not stop us from hoping.If something is really meant to be it will happen... no matter what.

Hope and Faith are 2 things that keep us from breaking down!

A subtle difference....on its way to be significant!

It is when you know things are not right and you have the potential to make it right.... if not great...... at least better...... still you wait for someone to set things right just because you think they(someone else) can do it better. well the answer is -doesnt always happen that way.
Sometimes in life you need to stand up for what is right and try to make a difference withen your capacity... to hell with what others think...

There will always be a set of people(jerks) who'll think you are wrong.They will try their level best to stop you from doin things that'll make a difference in the world around you but the trick is to listen to your gut feeling and move on.

It feels great to know that you are making a difference in someone's life.... My advice to all of you reading this ... try it... take an initiative to do something selflessly...it feels gr8!

Presentations, Tests ...etc

Past 2 weeks have been too much for me.... loaded with tests and presentations. Hardly have sleep of 4-5 hrs...takin a toll on my health...
Earlier ,stayin awake till 2am-3am used to be a big deal for me... well...not anymore,,....;)
On the contrary I have started likin stay up late... its too silent and peaceful.Seems like i have all the time in the world just for me...

More 3 presenations to go in this month and one in the next month thus officially concluding my second semister(lecture part...).Have my end semister exams next month....12 subjects less than 30 days...scary yaar... gotta start studyin.

Well ....cant figure out how time flies....admission to MBA seems like yest. In a couple of months we are goin to have a fresh batch comin in...WOW!...we r goin to be seniors...hmm... would be interestin.

Happy HOLIday!

Its 12.40 am and I have a series of tests and presentations comin up...

Dont feel like studyin either....

Have a holiday after a very long time...... for id and holi!

Wishing U n ur family a very Happy Holi!!

Anyways today was fun. Got an opportunity to go out with family for dinner after a long time. Had a gr8 time. .... along with gr8 conversations right from art, drama etc... to what I should or can do after my mba.

I found the right time to put forth my desire to get into fashion designing. The conversation went sumthin like this...

DAD: you kno wat... u should finish ur M.Com after u finish ur MBA.... its just one yr left.

ME:ya... i will....

DAD:also... u should continue ur violin durin weekends or so... its good to learn instruments.

(fyi have learnt violin for 4 yrs...when?....long long ago...lol)
ME:ya.. dad... but u kno i want learn canvas painting from a good professional.

DAD:but u have given ur drawing exams...that.. elementry and intermediate exams?
ME:ya... but this is different...u c!

btw... dad... i want to join fashion designing school after mba.... remember that coll we went to when i was in fybcom?

DAD:wat r u talkin abt?(after a short flashback session)ah....ok.....what is the duration of the course?
ME:3 yrs(in a low tone)

DAD:r u sure?...(sounded more like u might wanna rethink)
ME:ya dad....+ve

Was successful in shockin dad today... but he is a person who respects knowledge. Am sure he will never say no for anything as far as learning is concerned. He trusts my decisions.

Its 12.50am now...... its raining outside...... wow! how can a person study in an environment like this ?

anyways... gtg.. I really need to pass in these tests...good nite!

Mama knows the best!

Well... you can fool ur friends,
you can fool ur enemies,
you can fool ur teachers,
you can fool the world,
you can fool urself,
you can fool GOD.....
....but u cant fool MOM...... they r gifted with sum inbuilt invisible lie detectors!

"is sumthin bothering you .....i kno sumthinz bothin u... tell me"
"nuh thin ma...... just nothin"
"u need to open up"
"what makes u think sumthin is botherin me?"
"u smile less these days, u dont eat well, u talk less, u dont seem to find things inspite of it being in front of u, ur room has becum a mess, ur stress is comin on ur face in the form of zits and..."
"ok...ok.... u can stop...."

see what i mean.... its like they can see thru u....thru ur eyes.... thru ur 'fake smile'.... they r awesum! ... scary yet awesum!

No matter how old u grow u'll always be their 'babies'..... they would fight the world for u, they mean the best for u...maybe thats why they say mama knos the best.(...errr...eerrr... most of the time)

Luv u mom... u rock!