Mr.Perfect exists??

'He would be perfect for u'
'Really??'
'well...ya....he is well educated, tall-dark-handsome , gr8 family, well to do......(etc etc)'

Never had this talk with anyone before.... k... at least not with mum.Felt sort of weird. Marriage me??....aint i too young for that? as i look around... I realise probably not that young. But i need time... 2-3 yrs maybe. I want to enjoy life before I take up this responsibility.

Parents will be parents, they want the best for us. Since I havent found any1 for myself ...didnt see any harm in giving it a thought.
But there is still a long way to go...

Lets wait and see what happens.

Run coward run

I have seen people running from situations as they fail to gather courage to face them, but you know what.... you beat them all...why?? because you dont have the balls to face yourself. Run(/hybernate)... thats all you do or rather thats all you have been doin throughout your life. Thats the reason why you dont deserve sympathy. One can sympathise with a person who has had the courage to face the situation and sort it out(....or at least attempted) but failed. I really wished you were one of them.
Dont think that people around you are stupid.... at least not the people who are close to you, who know you. But using silence,playin the blame game, rationalizing your actions(which you are gr8 at) or your usual 'disappearing act' just shows how much irresponsible and incapable you are of handling situations of your life/decisions.
Remember you cant get away like this every time .... its goin to be painful for you and others.
'running from a problem is not the solution to it'

Hope you get the point.
PS: I miss you

Best friends ......in installments!!!

God has been very kind to me when it comes to friends. Since childhood I have never fallen short of friends.... and I have found a good variety of them, possessing different combinations....right from caring, possessive, nerd, weird, sweet, dumb, intelligent, indifferent, snob, psycho, smart....super smart, and some plain selfish. Got to learn a lot from them.
But when it came to best friends....I think God was pretty confused himself. He chose to give me some variety....also not to forget in installments. For every 2-3 yrs I would have friends with whom I could connect, share the deepest secrets , our typical joys n sorrows, crushes, gal talk but then eventually for some strange reason we would part...and lose touch over a period. All that remains is the tag 'best friend'.
No onez to blame in this situation as its no onez fault. As they say its very easy to build relationships... the difficult part is to maintain it. I feel somewhere in life priorities change... (I mean every one of us here)...consequently so do people. Why? How? Well there are many factors....careers, boyfriend/girlfriend, work etc etc.... and some times misunderstandings (worst).
Right now in this stage I do have 'close friends' who like me for who I am(as I am), care for me, have been there for me when I needed them(and vice versa …of course)....and I hope we remain close friends forever.

soo not in love...

Am soo not in love.
If i were (in love) i would have.... thought abt him all the time.....Missed him when he was not around......Searched for him in the crowd and looked away when found....or Think abt him at night wishing for the comfort of his arms.
I dont think abt him that way..... of course am not in love.



I dont blush when our eyes meet nor do I listen to his fav songs...(everyday) ....nor do i wish to meet 'accidentally' sumwhere....
of course am not in love....
You dont believe me .....huh?
I dont miss him when i read romantic novels...not even when i gaze at the clear night sky lit with a zillion stars....
I dont wish for his happiness everynight nor do I wish that we never met in the first place so that i would't have to lie to everyone including myself that i am sooo not in love....